Wednesday, October 1, 2008

What a morning!

So, I decided to not take the job. I am reluctant to go to work. Anthony heard me crying last night and talking to Aidan, which started a long discussion about our schedules and work and Aidan. We decided that 5:30 is WAY to early for both Aidan and I. To make that work Aidan would have to be in bed earlier which cuts Anthony's time with him since he already works 6 days a week!

Anyways, the morning started with me calling to tell Cathy I wasn't going to take the position. She got pissy with me. I don't like pissy people. I even offered to help her next week while she finds somebody to fill the position. She was still pissy. Oh well, I was nice about the whole thing. As Anthony points out... who wants to work for a lady with an attitude like that anyways!! Then I had to call Thi who was going to do our childcare and I felt SO bad telling her that I wasn't taking the job. It was already short notice for her anyways and now I canceled. I feel like a flake!

Aidan and I were going to the mall for a Mommy and Me meetup this morning so I woke him up at 10:15 and got him dressed in an adorable little outfit with a zip up sweatshirt and jeans and sneakers. No sooner do I stick him in his carseat and he PUKES all over his outfit! So, I take him out to change him. I change Aidan on our ottoman in front of the Lazy Boy. This morning I had my head turned while reaching for his sock.. and THUNK! he falls off! I felt terrible, my baby has never fallen from anything. I felt so irresponsible!!!

He's over it now and taking a good nap. I feel like I need one too! On a good note, I cam ehome and checked my email. In my inbox was an email that Anthony sent from his friend's phone saying "I love you". That made my day much better!


Kim said...

Better that you make a decision about going back to work based on how you feel than being guilted into it by your possible employer. I say good for you deciding to stay home. Also don't feel too terrible about Aiden falling off the ottoman, accidents happen. We turn our heads for two seconds and plop. I still remember when Preston first learned how to crawl, he crawled right off our bed while I was trying to fight waking up. I felt horrible and then I read something that said you will have accidents as a Mommy and that doesn't make you a bad parent. You learn from your mistakes and as a result you become a better parent!!

Domrese Family Blog said...

I totally hear you about not being able to go back to work! I worked for one year after the boys and only because we hired a fantastic nanny that came to our house. She moved and we couldn't find anyone I felt comfortable leaving my babes with. So I quit! It was the best decision I ever made, no matter how incredibly guilty I felt!

As for falling. All kids fall. Seriously. I've never met a kid that hasn't tumbled off the bed, a chair, or even stairs at some point in life. The boys have fallen multiple times. It's part of life. :)

Aunti Robyn said...

Sounds like you made the right decision for now not to go to work...when the time is right it will fall into place for you and you won't have to deal with employers with attitudes!
And don't worry about Aidan falling, I remember very vividly you accidently rolling/falling off your parents bed and we all went ballistic and you were just fine! And you grew up just peachy, these things happen, don't be so hard on yourself, you have a long way to go till he's on his own and you'll kill yourself worrying about every little owie! Love your blog!